It's Just me, V

Wanting to say, “I’m sorry” and not really sure how
Missing the some ones I love so dearly, 
the emotions come out my eyes

Waiting and hoping that my life can change, 
but knowing the feeling of being stuck in the same
My heart feels incomplete, 
I know that I am guilty of a big mouth and strong opinions
Not always right, but seldom will admit wrong

“I’m sorry” is so hard to say, 
Especially when there is nothing more than silence
Feelings of crumble
Heaviness is everywhere

Silence is a communication in itself 
The only sound the buzzing in my head
Worry increases as with passing time, 
the rift seems to spread

I’m sorry I said things,
 - for being graceless
My love for family weighs more than words, 

Impulsively responding to actions of others
has made such complication
 - the entanglement - harsh
Only growing with the passing of time

Heaviness in my heart 
the pounding in my chest
Choking on air, 
Reaching to the sky, 
Arms out stretched 
Prayers - crying out for answers

Sleepless nights, 
thinking
Mind won’t stop spinning
What if?
If when?

Hoping to hear a familiar voice, 
A moment to feel an embrace, 
A few moments to whisper, “I love you”
A chance to say, “I’m sorry”